There is only you and your camera. The limitations...are in yourself, for what we see is what we are.

title quote by Ernst Haas

I used to make youtube videos. I loved it. I still have my channel but nothing new has been posted in about a year. I stopped making videos once I realized I could never make the kind of videos I wanted, like artistic ones, music ones, ones that needed acting because I realized one day that I am not attractive. I have a slight problem with my mouth movements when I speak, you can see it on the old ones, and I noticed how huge I looked. I got embarrassed and self-conscious so I stopped and put it out of my mind.

The yesterday I got the idea to make videos just for me. Why do I need to put them on youtube? I thought that validated them or something. But now I can make any video I want any way I want and not have to be worried that someone will make fun of me like they sometimes used to do. So last night I started making myself a video to keep me inspired on my weight loss goal. It keeps me busy when I am bored and want to eat and gives me something to look at to feel like I accomplished something.

my old channel is deathbysnapple in case you were curious