I'm doing better today. I don't know why I felt so out of control last night. I didn't cut though. I have learned in the past 5 months or so how to breathe through the feeling. It passes if I don't give in, so I didn't. Instead I did a round of crunches and jump roping to get out the energy that feeling out of control and on the edge gives me. It was remarkably useful. So I will view that as a triumph. I also weighed myself this morning at my usual time and I was back down to 145.2. Still a .2 gain but it's just superficial and will be gone by the end of the day because I'll be walking around all day accompanying my sister while she gets shirts sfor work. And I am reinstating my fast, I just have to not break it. If I don't eat any food I stay strong, if I eat even the smallest amount I lose all control and stuff my face. Well, I'm off to start my day with a better attitude then I ended my last day with. Wish me luck.