dread and hope

Today I have to work again. I'm not looking forward to it at all. The kids had about 4 snow days, so no time class time to work on their big projects with the teacher like they were supposed to get. Naturally, I thought the teacher would then extend the due date a day or two like it used to be when I was in high school. Wrong! The stupid bitch still wants th kids to have it in by Friday even though their entire last week for getting anything done was taken from them. Which means more stress for them and me as the nanny. So its to the library we go this afternoon for research. But I can only take one kid because when they are together they act like wild animals in public. Even the one sort of does on his own so I am dreading the outing. The best part is, that they are both in their teen years now and don't seem to know better. After work though, I am hoping to get over to Barnes and Noble to purchase this beautiful leather journal to fill with my own research. I want to collect recipes in another as well.  Hopefully I get off work tonight before they close. Then I will be heading home for the first time since last Wednesday. I miss it. But everytime I go home I get stuck in a b/p cycle. I'm honestly a little scared. But hopefully I am strong enough now to avoid it. I used the word 'hopefully' a lot today, that must mean I have some sort of positive outlook for life today, however small and repressed. Have a good afternoon everyone.