Last night an old friend came by. He came to get his things that he left here because he is severing ties with me and Laura. But when he'd gone, he left a black hole of misery that sucked everyone in. I hadn't seen him in a month, not since the big blow-up between the 3 of us. He confessed feelings for her after kissing me, after I'd confessed feelings for him. Stupidly complicated right? I am invisible next to her. Since she doesn't return his feelings he walked away from both of us, sending me the message that being rejected by her is worth more than being friends with me. That on top of being rejected in a more romantic aspect was a sharp knife.
So he came by and he looked so different. He hasn't been taking care of himself, he hadn't shaved in at least a week and looked miserable with dead eyes. He was here for barely 10 minutes, long enough to get in, take his things and leave with barely a goodbye. And I have no doubt that that was the last we'll see of him for a long time.
I want to be mad but it's just too depressing but thanks for being one more person to show me that I am not worthwhile.
title: quote from Supernatural
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