I have to go job hunting today.  I really don't want to. I looked through an employment journal but it seemed the only things I am qualified for are janitorial positions and plasma donations. I applied for a job already at a cosmetics counter but I doubt I'll get that. I want a job but if I get this it could mean the end of my current job. Which scares me. I will miss the kids immensely. But I don't even know if that will happen, probably not. On the plus side I found those Special K crackers that Ive been looking for forever and I controlled mysef so well when I baked a million cookies tonight. When can I enjoy my life? When do I get a life to enjoy?