changing directions and finding religion??

I had a huge blow up with my best friend last night. Well all day yesterday really. Mostly because I am a freak. I am the only one I know (that is under the age of 40) that does not enjoy partying with strangers, going to a bar just to get wasted, and a plethora of other things I find distasteful. I think its irresponsible to go for cocktails between classes in Pharmacy School. I think its sleazy to go out on a saturday night to multiple bars and clubs getting plastered and dancing on strangers. I know I'm in the minority but my best friend used to back me up on this. Now she's joining these girls she's in school with doing these things. She doesnt understand whats wrong with drinking at 1130 on wednesday morning. She thinks that because its what "everyone else" does that she should experience it too. And thats not the person I was friends with for 11 years. So yeah, I'm upset and I feel entirely alone. I am the only person I know of that doesn't enjoy or condone that behavior. So I'm a freak and I'm being left alone. I guess I always knew I wasnt good enough for the general public, hence the self-esteem issues and self harm in various forms.


But I am changing directions. I am going to distance myself from her a bit if thats the life she is going to lead. I don't want to do those things so we can't hang out when she does them. Instead I am going to go to the only place where people may believe the same things I do: church. Let her have her partying ways and see where it gets her and I will go to church and see where that gets me. I've hardly ever been to church in my 21 years and this one is a little different than what I'm used to, seeing as its of the mormon religion. But my family invites the elders into our home once a week for scripture readings so it should go all right, though they do prefer women to wear skirts in church. And I am nothing if not respectful so.........


Now I am off to buy a skirt of knee-length to wear to church on sunday. Wow I never thought I would say those words.